Update: All info below is now 3 years old. All children have now moved out.
The mothering spirit has resided in me for 29 years. I have rejoiced in it, bathed in it and spilled many tears because of it. There is no moving past it once you enter it nor would I have a desire to do so. I want to share this ride with the universe before it all fades away in a distant memory.
This blog celebrates getting to a point in my life where I once again made time to be really present with my children. Quality time. I am not exhausted anymore.
I have 4 children and three have moved out on their own. I have a 16 year old still at home, along with a new addition, Curtis 17, whom we have taken into our family. I know how quickly time flies and I don’t want to miss out on living life with them. What I mean is I want to be fully present. (I realize this will need updating every year so I have put this date on it so the information remains accurate…October 2010)
My first two boys were born in Key West at home. I had a wonderful midwife that delivered my first three children, Sharon Hamilton. My last child two children were born in St John. Sharon midwifed Juma and Raina was assisted by three close friends that were all midwives. I was blessed.
When I was 23 I moved to the Virgin Islands with my 1 1/2 year old son. I had never been there before nor did I know anyone that lived there. About a month before I moved I went to the library and read up on various U.S. owned islands. I choose St. John because 2/3’s was national park along with being very beautiful. I had $150.00 left after buying the ticket. We made it work and I lived there for 20 years.
I moved back to the states because the violence had grown to where I did not think it was safe to raise my last two children there. It has since calmed down. They are teenagers now and happy to be in the states.
My children grew up in various living situations. Mostly we were always building where we were living. For years we lived with no running water, cold water when we did have running water, sometimes there were no bathrooms built yet. We knew how to live out of a cooler and make sandwiches next to a grocery store in our car. My children were raised to appreciate nature. They are full of life and have respect for others.
I had my first child when I was 21 and now I am 50. We worked very hard building our home, running our small business; I was also a midwife delivering many babies on the island.
It was a wonderful life but I became very exhausted. I was a bragging super mom and then I burned out. It was hard to get up in the morning, my back hurt all the time, sleeping was not comfortable. I had done too much for too long and now I was paying for it.
I cut back on many things, returned to practicing yoga and Qigong. I meditated and danced. I stopped taking self-help classes and stared living what I knew inside, a sort of living meditation. I accepted my dark and light side. Finally I have the energy to start something new.
This web site is dedicated to living life to the fullest: everyday, every breath.
If you want ‘more me’ than visit my post called 100 Things about me.