A fertility story

Birth is like snowflakes, no two are alike.
I have said this a million times but what I should of repeated along with it is:
Getting pregnant is like snowflakes, no two fertility stories are the same.
Telling stories has a purpose. It helps us understand the human side to life.
Here is my human side to fertility.

I have four children but getting pregnant wasn’t a fast thing for my body. I always had far apart periods; 30 to 45 days apart (the average was every 28 days just like the full moons). I did not use birth control but only got pregnant once a year. To be clear there were lots of opportunities for the squiggly sperm to make its journey to the robust egg. I am pretty sure the egg was feeling fine but just didn’t want to be bothered. SHE (the egg) seemed to love the month of July. She got very social that month because in July 1979 she danced with the squiggly guy. Unfortunately two months later the pregnancy ended. Another year goes by and every month SHE didn’t want to be bothered until July came. But again, two months later the pregnancy ended. Another year goes by and after months of keeping HERSELF closed off, July comes and she danced, and nine months later my first child was born. Breastfeeding kept HER from dancing three months later (July) but SHE couldn’t hold back any longer the following July, seeing as I had just stopped breastfeeding, and nine months later my second son was born.

What I am hoping to relay to other women is not the sensual dance of the egg but the fact our body’s are not always reading the science journals. They usually react a certain way but sometimes they just dance to their own set of musicians. If I was trying to plan my life out and get pregnant in say…August, I would of been pretty fearful or untrusting of my body by June. That would be 10 months of waiting. By 10 months I would of thought my body was malfunctioning. At this point, if I was a planner, I would of been reading the text books, doing my research and probably already been to my OB/GYN to see why my body was failing me. I might of already taken some new drug that might solve my “problem”.

What I wouldn’t of know was that I didn’t have a problem. That my body did know how to carry a baby just fine. That my body knew how to birth a baby just fine. It just had it’s own time schedule.

Even the miscarriages that I had were natures way of knowing what my body needed. I do not have a scientific reason as to why they happened. I think that the formation of their little bodies were possibly not happening like they needed to or my body was not ready to be a mama yet. I do not know. The experience did prepare my emotions to understand the process of being a mother. It allowed me a very slow transition into caring for a child on a daily basis. I view it as perfect for what my life journey is and was.

Fast forward six years and I am in a new relationship and we both really want a child together. After a year and a half go by with us trying to wake the egg up and get her dancing, NOTHING. So I decide to add some chemistry into the situation, my own natural drug Dong Quai in tincture form. I took that and did Kundalini Yoga for two weeks straight. BOOM. The egg was twerking. Now I know it may of had nothing to do with the tincture or the yoga but  I do think, if nothing else, the yoga relaxed me enough into being more chill overall. Chill enough to allow my body the space it needed. I was pregnant once again. I actually thought maybe my body could not do the whole pregnant thing again. That it had retired from that department. Even though I had two children I had yearned for another. So I can relate to others that yearn for a little one in their lives. But the egg had decided to dance after all and nine months later a little boy was born.
My body had shifted over the long break. Had I thought my body was malfunctioning I might of really thrown things off by interrupting it with artificial drugs. I will never be sure what would of happened with allopathic drugs and to be clear, I do think there are cases where they have helped others.  For my story, the only story I have,  I am grateful I was patient. This story is to remind us how different we all are, that we are not text books, we are women with multi prisms stories.

My lesson in surrender was not over. This story has two sides to the coin. The side where I have to let go to get pregnant and the side where I have to let go after getting pregnant. We thought we were done after three boys but unbeknown to me my egg decided to twerk again a year and a half later. This was with us being very careful not to bother HER. Great strides were taken not to send any rhythm HER way. In my mind I was done. My mind thought my body did not have it in her to be pregnant one more time, let alone raise another baby into a little person. But the planning mind once again does not always know what the actual life journey of my human experience needs. Nine months later a little girl arrived in my world. I needed this little girl to be part of my life. I surrendered to this life experience and my heart song got a lot stronger. I had the joy of four children to follow me around like little ducklings follow the mother duck. For years I got to waddle this way and that and they just waddled along with me. Now they are all making their own journeys in life.
I just wanted to share this with whomever finds its journey useful. Thank you and please share so OUR woman stories vibrate into the future.

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Fruit is Nature’s fast food

Pardon me if I add a post that comes from a somewhat political satire commentary, one that I find very interesting to watch at times, by the way, but this post is just to get you to think about how we are manipulated by someone that wants to make a buck at the expense of your health and the health of the planet. It is a simple product really. One you might find completely harmless at the grocery store.

You will pass by it and your kids might pick it up with a smile and say, “buy this one, I want this one”.

You will think, “OK, if I buy this they will be happy and not bother me the rest of the shopping trip.” So you put it innocently in your cart and take it home thinking, “I bought something healthy for the kids, I bought them a natural fruit snack.”

The kids like it so much you make it a regular on your shopping trips.

I can write this because I have fallen victim to it. Consumerism at it’s finest.

But this product I am about to tell you about seems really ridiculous when you watch Steven Colbert’s segment about it.

Sometimes comedians have the best method to waking us up.

PepsiCo just came out with Tropolis, an edible fruit that makes it convenient to eat fruit anytime. Steven Colbert does a segment on his show about it. It is a horrible addition to plastic non-recyclable waste.

Pepsi said  “…our hope is that this new nutritious snack will give [parents] yet another way to give their children fruit goodness…”

Colbert say’s “I think this is great because fruit, in it’s current form, is impossible to eat. Look at this banana, how do I get into this thing,” as he takes out a hammer and starts pounding on skin and all.

He say’s he has a problem with the fact the packaging is non-recyclable and proceeds to say, “You can’t eat the pouch. Get engineers to make some sort of apple snack encased in some sort of edible skin, that would be a real break through.”

A picture of an apple appears.

Oh, that’s already been done by mother nature but pepsi can’t make as much money on that concept.

The part about the apple is 45 seconds into it. It’s won’t make you laugh hysterically but it is food for thought. (I couldn’t get just the apple part but that is the ony part I am referencing)
The Colbert Report Mon – Thurs 11:30pm / 10:30c
Thought for Food – Fruit Pouch, Doritos Ad & Super Big Gulp
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